Allah

Allah

Monday, June 14, 2010

Can't a Hijabi Get An Education?

Salaam wa alaikum,

As I sat at my work desk today I was playing with my log in for the Graduate program I will start in the fall insha'Allah. I got a big blow to my anxiety threshold when I found out my tuition and fees for 1 class will be $4000. I don't qualify for financial aid because it is a certificate program!!!!!!!!!!!!! How will I pay for this??? I want to go to school more than anything right now. I hate only having a Bachelor's but I couldn't afford to continue.....now I can't afford to go back!!!! Aren't there any scholarships for broke Muslimahs.......??????????? I am so depressed.....I want to get a Saudi Govt scholarship!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why doesn't our country send anyone to school??? I want to stop working full time and be able to devote my time to getting my master's degree. I also want to be able to throw myself into my research without having to worry about how to put food on my table and pay my rent. If you have $4000 in disposable income...please donate to the sendkatetocollegeforhermasters fund!!! ha ha ha ha ha ha
Please everyone pray for me that I can find this money somewhere insha'Allah....

Salaam,

Katie

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Hijabi in the Workplace

I do my best to pray at work. I do wudu in the bathroom then go pray in the library so I can have some peace and quiet. Most days when I take off my scarf to do wudu it spurs a relgious discussion. The project manager of the entire company I work for came in the bathroom when I was washing. Seeing me without my scarf prompted her to ask when I could take it off and when I can't. Who are you suppossed to wear it in front of? Can your husband see you without it? Do these people think that my arms are invisibly handcuffed to my body and that I cannot lift the scarf off of my head? That I believe I will burst into flames if I removed the scarf. It is not glued to my head! If I wanted to take it off I could...if I didn't want to wear it I wouldn't! It is my way of being modest and trying to please Allah with my modesty. It is also a sign to all that I am Muslim so I do not do certain things. It deters the men in my office from feeling like they can flirt with me; it makes me feel comfortable so I can interact with my male coworkers without feeling like they are looking at my beauty. Hijab is a blessing to Muslim women so they can move freely in society without being bothered. I don't need to focus on my appearance to strangers. How stressfull getting ready for school used to be before hijab! I used to have to get up hours before school so I could make my apprearance "appropriate". I had to worry about being sexually attractive at all times. Those times were the most stressfull, anxious and unhappy times of my life. Focusing on outer beauty and judging people by their looks leads to unhappiness. I will NEVER go back to worrying like that on a daily basis. My hijab takes care of all of that worry.

Salaam,

Kate

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Inspirational Young Lady Masha'Allah

This young lady brought tears to my eyes. I empathize with her most greatly and I wish that Allah will bless her for her struggles. My mother even enjoyed the article!!

http://www.oprah.com/spirit/Choosing-to-Wear-the-Muslim-Headscarf/1

Choosing To Wear the Muslim Headscarf